by Alexandra Plotnikova

       What do you know about forgiveness when your heart is full of evil toward yourself? Evil to the whole world because by your fault it was not a success? Because you did not make a single effort to change your life? Not a shred of honesty? Not a shred of patience and work on yourself. I did absolutely nothing and did not build anything. You are full of evil and helplessness in a world that has always been open to you. But you turned away from it because you were not up to him. It was only for entertainment, money and a bit of lust that has never brought happiness, never been a source of energy and life. They were vice and charity when you could have more than you could imagine. Missed opportunities because of the evil heart and inability to see yourself from the outside. 

And now there are only two questions in my head: What should I do right now? and how much time do I have? 

P.S.: Sorry for starting the blog this way, but this what I worry about in this period of time.